But Quran says that Allah is the only one God, that he made the world and that those who believe in him, who speak no lies, who do not steal, who recites Quran loudly five times, who do not commit adultery, who does not hurt anybody will go to heaven in the future. But I did not have the assurance in my life or had not experienced the assurance in my life. Until sixteen years of my life I recited Quran five times a day but still, my heart was filled with an emptiness continuously.
So I started studying deeply about the characters in the history as given in Quran which I had already read from Quran. In my young age, Muslim priests taught Quran in Mosque and later on they came and taught the Quran at home. When they were teaching me like this, there were 25 characters, that is, 25 prophets as given in the Quran. In Arabic, these characters are called Ambiya Mursalingal. Among these 25 prophets, the last prophet is given as Mohammed. About Mohammed, it is written that he was the greatest and precious prophet etc. because he founded the Islam religion and Quran was written on revelation from Allah. According to the Quran's order of prophets, Adam was the first prophet and Mohammed was the last prophet. Adam to Mohammed there were 25 prophets. The 24th prophet was Jesus Christ. When I started studying about Him there was a great stir in my heart to study about Him deeply.
When we study the book of Esther we do not read the word "God" in that book, but we can see the mighty acts of God in that book. In the same way, the Quran does not say about Isa Masih (Jesus Christ) that he is great, or that He has divine qualities or that He is unique. But a study of His life story reveals the truth of His greatness, His Godliness and His uniqueness hidden in the history of His life story.
In the Quran, it is written about Jesus. "O, Mariam" or "Surat-ul-Mariam" are two names in the Quran. There was an Emam in Mosque whose virgin daughter's name was Mariam beevi. Allah's angel called her "O, Mariam". So in Quran, the name "O, Mariam" was recorded. As the life story and details of Mariam is written, the name of Mariam came in the surats of Quran. In Surat 19:20 & 21 it is written that by the Word (kalaam) of Allah Jesus Christ was formed (born) in Mariam beevi's womb.
While reading these verses a thought came into my mind that prophet Jesus was born in the womb of Mariam beevi just because of Allah's spoken Word. Prophet Mohammed has spoken the revelation, verses, words spoken by Allah in the Quran. Only through those verses that we understand about Allah. Then I felt, "Is not prophet Jesus the Word of Allah? Then why was it spoken about Him that He is just a prophet? Again I started thinking, "Prophet Mohammad is called the "precious prophet" and people celebrate his prophethood and give honor to prophet Mohammad and prophet Mohammad is spoken of as the greatest prophet.
There is a faith verse in Quran called "Shahadat-kalaam" Those who want to accept Allah, he/she should speak this Kalaam that Allah is the one god and without him no one else, he is the alpha and omega. Whom I am accepting as my only God. I am witnessing that this prophet is the prophet, Mohammad. This much greatness is given to prophet Mohammad. But this prophet Mohammad was born in this earth as the son of Amina Beevi and Abdullah. When he was born, he was just a human being. At the age of forty, he was given the prophethood. These things are written in Quran itself.
But Prophet Jesus was not born of a man but was divinely conceived in the womb of Virgin Mary by the spoken word of Allah. While thinking on these things I started to feel that the father of Prophet Jesus must be Allah whom I am worshipping as the only god. I started to say to myself that there is something special in prophet Jesus.
While studying the life story of Jesus, as written in the Quran, I found that from His 30th year He started His ministry to preach the Good news with His twelve disciples, that mighty miracles took place through His word, and seeing that blind people and lepers were getting healed, that all the people of the country were following Him, fearing that they may lose their authority, the Jews planned to kill Jesus by crucifixion. But it is written that when they were trying to implement their plan Allah took Jesus bodily to heaven. The Jews mistakenly killed one of the disciples of Jesus on the cross. But Jesus is today in heaven.
But there is a day called end day coming when Anti-Christ will come to rule the world. At that time nations will be under his kingdom and his rule. And because of the troubles, hardship, and tribulations, people will cry and think, 'who will help us? Who will save us? and Who will deliver us from this man? It is written that at that time Allah will send prophet Jesus on this earth with authority to defeat anti-Christ and his disciples in a war and He will become a deliverer and Savior for those frightened people who are looking for help. All these things are written in Quran itself.
Then I thought, "prophet Mohammad is being spoken of as the greatest, he is also considered as unique in Quran, but I felt that Jesus Christ deserved more to be given this greatness and to be considered as unique. I brought this doubt before my mother. Mother told it to my father. My father and others came to me and said, "you should not question Allah's words but you should follow his words." The reason was that in their eyes I was something different.
When my father would come home on holidays from Mosque, people came from far away places with different kinds of problems for a solution. My father would be performing something or other for them. For the solution for their family debts, problems, quarrels and peacelessness my father would write Quran verses, read and recite over talisman and bind over them or pray over a thread and bind over them or recite and pray over water and give it to them. After that, they will come with big presents and will say, "because you gave us those things, now our problem has been solved."
People came also in the absence of my father. My father had given me instruction on such occasions to recite such and such verses bind this way or that way give that to them and send them away and those things will work and will perform what is required Later on I have heard them reporting to my father saying, "what your daughter had given brought quicker and better result than what you give."
Because through me such things were happening, those within my family, those around me and the relatives of my father felt something special about me. So they would say, "you should not question the words of the Quran but you should follow it." If you question Quran and if something happens, then not only you alone but also our whole family would be coming under the curse.
As no one could satisfactorily clear my doubts and as according to my expectation I could not come across a divine experience, a heavenly experience, from my 14th year whenever I would enter for prayer and when I would come out after prayer, which I do five times in a day, every time I used to pray, "Allah, my scripture says that you are only one God and I believe that. But I do not have the assurance that you are the one God and that you do mighty miracles. I want you to bring me to that assurance. Because my father has given my whole life to you. When I will be coming to marriageable age, my father would give me in marriage to an Emam like my father. Then both of us together will have to live pleasing Allah. That is, in essence, the vow of my father. I said, Allah, I want to live like that only. But I want you to give me the assurance that you are the one who created me that you are the one who created this world.
I prayed this prayer ten times a day from the 14th year of my life until the 16th year.
So I started studying deeply about the characters in the history as given in Quran which I had already read from Quran. In my young age, Muslim priests taught Quran in Mosque and later on they came and taught the Quran at home. When they were teaching me like this, there were 25 characters, that is, 25 prophets as given in the Quran. In Arabic, these characters are called Ambiya Mursalingal. Among these 25 prophets, the last prophet is given as Mohammed. About Mohammed, it is written that he was the greatest and precious prophet etc. because he founded the Islam religion and Quran was written on revelation from Allah. According to the Quran's order of prophets, Adam was the first prophet and Mohammed was the last prophet. Adam to Mohammed there were 25 prophets. The 24th prophet was Jesus Christ. When I started studying about Him there was a great stir in my heart to study about Him deeply.
When we study the book of Esther we do not read the word "God" in that book, but we can see the mighty acts of God in that book. In the same way, the Quran does not say about Isa Masih (Jesus Christ) that he is great, or that He has divine qualities or that He is unique. But a study of His life story reveals the truth of His greatness, His Godliness and His uniqueness hidden in the history of His life story.
In the Quran, it is written about Jesus. "O, Mariam" or "Surat-ul-Mariam" are two names in the Quran. There was an Emam in Mosque whose virgin daughter's name was Mariam beevi. Allah's angel called her "O, Mariam". So in Quran, the name "O, Mariam" was recorded. As the life story and details of Mariam is written, the name of Mariam came in the surats of Quran. In Surat 19:20 & 21 it is written that by the Word (kalaam) of Allah Jesus Christ was formed (born) in Mariam beevi's womb.
While reading these verses a thought came into my mind that prophet Jesus was born in the womb of Mariam beevi just because of Allah's spoken Word. Prophet Mohammed has spoken the revelation, verses, words spoken by Allah in the Quran. Only through those verses that we understand about Allah. Then I felt, "Is not prophet Jesus the Word of Allah? Then why was it spoken about Him that He is just a prophet? Again I started thinking, "Prophet Mohammad is called the "precious prophet" and people celebrate his prophethood and give honor to prophet Mohammad and prophet Mohammad is spoken of as the greatest prophet.
There is a faith verse in Quran called "Shahadat-kalaam" Those who want to accept Allah, he/she should speak this Kalaam that Allah is the one god and without him no one else, he is the alpha and omega. Whom I am accepting as my only God. I am witnessing that this prophet is the prophet, Mohammad. This much greatness is given to prophet Mohammad. But this prophet Mohammad was born in this earth as the son of Amina Beevi and Abdullah. When he was born, he was just a human being. At the age of forty, he was given the prophethood. These things are written in Quran itself.
But Prophet Jesus was not born of a man but was divinely conceived in the womb of Virgin Mary by the spoken word of Allah. While thinking on these things I started to feel that the father of Prophet Jesus must be Allah whom I am worshipping as the only god. I started to say to myself that there is something special in prophet Jesus.
While studying the life story of Jesus, as written in the Quran, I found that from His 30th year He started His ministry to preach the Good news with His twelve disciples, that mighty miracles took place through His word, and seeing that blind people and lepers were getting healed, that all the people of the country were following Him, fearing that they may lose their authority, the Jews planned to kill Jesus by crucifixion. But it is written that when they were trying to implement their plan Allah took Jesus bodily to heaven. The Jews mistakenly killed one of the disciples of Jesus on the cross. But Jesus is today in heaven.
But there is a day called end day coming when Anti-Christ will come to rule the world. At that time nations will be under his kingdom and his rule. And because of the troubles, hardship, and tribulations, people will cry and think, 'who will help us? Who will save us? and Who will deliver us from this man? It is written that at that time Allah will send prophet Jesus on this earth with authority to defeat anti-Christ and his disciples in a war and He will become a deliverer and Savior for those frightened people who are looking for help. All these things are written in Quran itself.
Then I thought, "prophet Mohammad is being spoken of as the greatest, he is also considered as unique in Quran, but I felt that Jesus Christ deserved more to be given this greatness and to be considered as unique. I brought this doubt before my mother. Mother told it to my father. My father and others came to me and said, "you should not question Allah's words but you should follow his words." The reason was that in their eyes I was something different.
When my father would come home on holidays from Mosque, people came from far away places with different kinds of problems for a solution. My father would be performing something or other for them. For the solution for their family debts, problems, quarrels and peacelessness my father would write Quran verses, read and recite over talisman and bind over them or pray over a thread and bind over them or recite and pray over water and give it to them. After that, they will come with big presents and will say, "because you gave us those things, now our problem has been solved."
People came also in the absence of my father. My father had given me instruction on such occasions to recite such and such verses bind this way or that way give that to them and send them away and those things will work and will perform what is required Later on I have heard them reporting to my father saying, "what your daughter had given brought quicker and better result than what you give."
Because through me such things were happening, those within my family, those around me and the relatives of my father felt something special about me. So they would say, "you should not question the words of the Quran but you should follow it." If you question Quran and if something happens, then not only you alone but also our whole family would be coming under the curse.
As no one could satisfactorily clear my doubts and as according to my expectation I could not come across a divine experience, a heavenly experience, from my 14th year whenever I would enter for prayer and when I would come out after prayer, which I do five times in a day, every time I used to pray, "Allah, my scripture says that you are only one God and I believe that. But I do not have the assurance that you are the one God and that you do mighty miracles. I want you to bring me to that assurance. Because my father has given my whole life to you. When I will be coming to marriageable age, my father would give me in marriage to an Emam like my father. Then both of us together will have to live pleasing Allah. That is, in essence, the vow of my father. I said, Allah, I want to live like that only. But I want you to give me the assurance that you are the one who created me that you are the one who created this world.
I prayed this prayer ten times a day from the 14th year of my life until the 16th year.
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