After that, for almost one year I worshiped and served my Lord secretly. In the presence of my family when they recited from the Quran, I would also do the same, but in my heart, I would pray to Jesus. When my mother was not watching, I would not recite but would go to my room and pray to Jesus kneeling down on my knees because it was when I was praying on my knees that I had my encounter with Jesus. That was the time when I saw Jesus and came to know Him. So from that day I would kneel down and pray. When my mother will call me saying, "come, daughter, it is time for recitation", then I would go with her and act as if I am also reciting, but in my heart, I would only say, "Jesus I worship you, Jesus I am praising you."
While sleeping at night I had a dream, somebody telling me that I may have to continue like this for one year. So I felt that I have to keep this newfound faith secret for almost one year. But in those days my father came home on every holiday because he was working as Emam in a nearby mosque. Sometimes he would come home in the evening and he observed that I was not reciting Quran. The reason for my not reciting Quran was that after knowing Jesus as God, I had no inclination to take any other name except the name of Jesus and to praise Him. So I stopped reciting Quran. But after an incident, God started giving me revelations, visions and advises. From that day onwards I would see
visions continuously. Through dreams, I used to see the past events and happenings of the Bible which I did not know.
You may be asking about that incidence, how it happened? At the time of recitation, I would also recite with my mother but at the beginning of the recitation one word "Allah Akbar" should be spoken loudly. Allah Akbar means Allah is the greatest. But I would not say that. My mother noticed that I was not speaking that word. After observing for two-three days, she asked, "What is the reason that I am not hearing you saying, "Allah Akbar"? I said, "I am telling along with you, that is why you could not hear." But she did not believe it. She started to observe carefully. That night I prayed like this, "Lord Jesus, it appears to be not possible for me to worship you and to keep my faith secret for one year. By that time the matter may be revealed. So, before that, shall I declare to them all these things that you appeared to me, that you came down in front of me, that you are the true God? When I asked and prayed like this, suddenly a thought passed through my mind. That was definitely not from my inner mind.
Such a thought could never have come from my mind because my situation was like that. My circumstance and experience was like that. At that time I did not have the knowledge, understanding, wisdom or education. The thought was like this, "Allah Akbar" means "Allah is the greatest". Jesus is called "Yeshu Masiha" in the Hebrew language and He is called "Isa Masih" in the Arabic language. If so "Isa Akbar" would mean "Jesus is the greatest".
So I decided that when I will be reciting along with my mother, when my mother would say, "Allah Akbar" I would say "Isa Akbar". In this manner, I worshipped for one year. From that day, my God started to teach me many things because when my God was about to send me in this world, I should be equipped with the understanding of the experience and culture of this world, He started to expand and enlarge my wisdom. The word of God says, "Fear of God is the beginning of wisdom." When we really love Him, worship Him and serve Him, He is able to fill us with wisdom. This is the very reason why, God anointed me, an individual who has no education, having no knowledge and understanding, having no experience of the culture of this world, to proclaim His words of wisdom to the masses.
So like this, I survived one year with the help of the Holy Spirit who led me. I realized that the Holy Spirit had always been with me because of the experiences that I had in my life later on.
My father when he came home, when he performed works of witchcraft, it happened that the effectiveness or power of the act did not show up. When my father prayed, it was revealed to him that the reason for the hindrance was because of me. He started to watch and found out that I was not reciting Quran. He called me and asked, "What happened to you, you are not reciting Quran? You do not have the zeal as before. Something had happened to you... I would say, "Nothing, there is no problem at all" and would slip away from that place.
But my heart was very heavy and I was worried thinking about what I should have to speak. But my father did not get a clear revelation through his witchcraft powers what could have happened to me. He only knew that something had happened to me. He became worried because it was time for him to fulfill his vow.
My father made all the arrangements for giving me in marriage to an Emam when I was 17 years old. He fixed everything and chose one Emam whom he himself sent to study in a place called Kasarcodu. That year he would come back and that was the time to give me in marriage. My father was worried that if at that moment if something happened to me or if some deficiency occurred in me, a curse could come upon the whole household. My father went to see some Muslim priests. They said, "Your doubt is correct, some magnetic power has enveloped her. Because she is under this magnetic power, she has forgotten all other things and she is forgetting other things. She would do every thing dictated by this power only. There are chances that she may leave us very soon." When my father heard that, he said, "That should not happen, because I am the leader of a group leading and guiding them and if it happens, it would be the reason for my great shame. Not only for me but for our society it would be shameful." He asked them what he should do then.
They told him, "Do one thing, immediately start preparing for her wedding." Before marriage, there is a ceremony for Muslim girls called purification. It is done for their purification and to strengthen their old faith once again and this is the act to once again affirming their faith and belief on Allah. Marriage takes place only after this ceremony and especially this ceremony is done in the houses of Muslim priests. They told him to do this ceremony and that at that time they will also come and do one more special ceremony on that day. They assured him that I will then become as old and that I will be separated from this power.
While sleeping at night I had a dream, somebody telling me that I may have to continue like this for one year. So I felt that I have to keep this newfound faith secret for almost one year. But in those days my father came home on every holiday because he was working as Emam in a nearby mosque. Sometimes he would come home in the evening and he observed that I was not reciting Quran. The reason for my not reciting Quran was that after knowing Jesus as God, I had no inclination to take any other name except the name of Jesus and to praise Him. So I stopped reciting Quran. But after an incident, God started giving me revelations, visions and advises. From that day onwards I would see
visions continuously. Through dreams, I used to see the past events and happenings of the Bible which I did not know.
You may be asking about that incidence, how it happened? At the time of recitation, I would also recite with my mother but at the beginning of the recitation one word "Allah Akbar" should be spoken loudly. Allah Akbar means Allah is the greatest. But I would not say that. My mother noticed that I was not speaking that word. After observing for two-three days, she asked, "What is the reason that I am not hearing you saying, "Allah Akbar"? I said, "I am telling along with you, that is why you could not hear." But she did not believe it. She started to observe carefully. That night I prayed like this, "Lord Jesus, it appears to be not possible for me to worship you and to keep my faith secret for one year. By that time the matter may be revealed. So, before that, shall I declare to them all these things that you appeared to me, that you came down in front of me, that you are the true God? When I asked and prayed like this, suddenly a thought passed through my mind. That was definitely not from my inner mind.
Such a thought could never have come from my mind because my situation was like that. My circumstance and experience was like that. At that time I did not have the knowledge, understanding, wisdom or education. The thought was like this, "Allah Akbar" means "Allah is the greatest". Jesus is called "Yeshu Masiha" in the Hebrew language and He is called "Isa Masih" in the Arabic language. If so "Isa Akbar" would mean "Jesus is the greatest".
So I decided that when I will be reciting along with my mother, when my mother would say, "Allah Akbar" I would say "Isa Akbar". In this manner, I worshipped for one year. From that day, my God started to teach me many things because when my God was about to send me in this world, I should be equipped with the understanding of the experience and culture of this world, He started to expand and enlarge my wisdom. The word of God says, "Fear of God is the beginning of wisdom." When we really love Him, worship Him and serve Him, He is able to fill us with wisdom. This is the very reason why, God anointed me, an individual who has no education, having no knowledge and understanding, having no experience of the culture of this world, to proclaim His words of wisdom to the masses.
So like this, I survived one year with the help of the Holy Spirit who led me. I realized that the Holy Spirit had always been with me because of the experiences that I had in my life later on.
My father when he came home, when he performed works of witchcraft, it happened that the effectiveness or power of the act did not show up. When my father prayed, it was revealed to him that the reason for the hindrance was because of me. He started to watch and found out that I was not reciting Quran. He called me and asked, "What happened to you, you are not reciting Quran? You do not have the zeal as before. Something had happened to you... I would say, "Nothing, there is no problem at all" and would slip away from that place.
But my heart was very heavy and I was worried thinking about what I should have to speak. But my father did not get a clear revelation through his witchcraft powers what could have happened to me. He only knew that something had happened to me. He became worried because it was time for him to fulfill his vow.
My father made all the arrangements for giving me in marriage to an Emam when I was 17 years old. He fixed everything and chose one Emam whom he himself sent to study in a place called Kasarcodu. That year he would come back and that was the time to give me in marriage. My father was worried that if at that moment if something happened to me or if some deficiency occurred in me, a curse could come upon the whole household. My father went to see some Muslim priests. They said, "Your doubt is correct, some magnetic power has enveloped her. Because she is under this magnetic power, she has forgotten all other things and she is forgetting other things. She would do every thing dictated by this power only. There are chances that she may leave us very soon." When my father heard that, he said, "That should not happen, because I am the leader of a group leading and guiding them and if it happens, it would be the reason for my great shame. Not only for me but for our society it would be shameful." He asked them what he should do then.
They told him, "Do one thing, immediately start preparing for her wedding." Before marriage, there is a ceremony for Muslim girls called purification. It is done for their purification and to strengthen their old faith once again and this is the act to once again affirming their faith and belief on Allah. Marriage takes place only after this ceremony and especially this ceremony is done in the houses of Muslim priests. They told him to do this ceremony and that at that time they will also come and do one more special ceremony on that day. They assured him that I will then become as old and that I will be separated from this power.
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